ppl know about our relationship. they want me to fix it. but how? i dont feel like talking to you at all. you dont try to understand and yet you assume that im being arrogant and acting like the world owes me a living. and while we're on the subject, i DONT owe you a living. just because you played a part in bringing me into the world doesnt mean i gotta do everything you say. you think whatever you're doing is right. you think you're always right. guess what, being the head of the house doesnt signify that you're perfect.

i try damn hard to please you. i try to ace my tests. but i always fail to get a good grade. and your other daughter gets full marks without batting an eyelid. i wonder why is it that you treat me differently.

is she sleeps in the middle of the day, you'd get worried and ask if she's sick or unwell. if i sleep in the middle of the day, you scold me and say im ruining my life by sleeping it away. whatever. you use harsh words on me. but you talk to her nicely. you yell at me but you leave her alone. why cant you do that for me?

ppl say you're not being bias. but know something? i think you are. everytime i come home, i'd wish you werent home yet. i'd hide in the room cuz i dont wanna see you. i sleep early so i wont have to bear with your nagging. whatever i do, you're not happy with it. why do you think im trying to damn hard to do well. i want to prove to you that im not useless and that i can make it.

ppl gasp and frown when they know i hate you. you make me believe you love me. but i dont believe you.. are you loving me only because you have to? or because you want to?

sher told me to sit you down for a meal and talk things through. but i cant. how do you expect me to do that? i dont even know what to say when we make small talk.

maybe our relationship was meant to be this way. just leave me alone.